I Am Retired - Or Am I?

I last worked full-time in January of 2019. The company I worked for decided to close the office to which I was assigned. It was ironic since I had a huge workload and mostly worked at home. I was 58.

At first I looked for jobs. I had been told my age would work against me. I didn’t believe that until a recruiter told me that I needed to consider a position that was a third of my former pay because that’s what women my age should understand is all that would be available, More irony that she was a woman who may have been ten years younger than me. I, of course, refused – not just because I knew my worth, but also because if we accept that as a society it says it’s OK.

Right when my unemployment was running out, COVID hit and my unemployment was extended, no job hunting was required, and I received the extra COVID unemployment compensation.

I had the gift of time to evaluate my life. I realized I didn’t like the idea of going back to work 60 hours a week, and also realized being a homeowner didn’t matter much to me. I sold my house, knowing the equity would cover me financially (living frugally) until I was 67 (my age for full Social Security) and moved into an apartment. I had prepared pretty well for retirement and my financial planner gave me her blessing.

I turned 65 in July. Looking back I made the best decision for me. I have been able to travel and spend time with family and friends. I love the flexibility in my life. I can’t believe I ever had time to work.

I still work occasionally. I write an article on a local musician once a month for a local monthly magazine, worked about six months part time for a small boutique insurance agency, and have worked open enrollments for several seasons (two on phones and one in person, acting as an enrollment counselor – helping people through their annual enrollment for their insurance benefits).

This year my plans are minimal – I have not signed a contact with any enrollment firm, have several trips planned, and I’ve just accepted a few days of work for a company for doing on-site benefit fairs or employee meetings.

With minimal work I never know how to answer the question – Am I retired? I’m not sure.

Lately I have been trying to get two pensions going – small ones from my early work days. Both were due to start August 1 (the month after I turned 64), and though I started this process in May, neither has started yet. I found out last week the larger one (which will cover my rent) will pay me August 1 (catching up that August payment, too). The second one is a problem – I only worked for that company 2-3 years, but was 100% vested for retirement (the company sold their NC operations and that was part of my parting package). They can’t figure out how much I should be paid – I got a call this morning I should know in a couple more weeks.

I consider all this free money – or maybe I should call it “freedom money”. My expenses are so low they will cover the majority of them. That will stretch the money from my home escrow.

I don’t think it will really change much in my life, but there is an ongoing decision of whether I continue to do these small jobs.

I have not struggled getting used to retirement, but the idea of how long I keep working on occasion? It’s more difficult to know what to do. Not having to do continuing education would be nice,

Choices are nice. Many don’t get them.

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