Oh yes, it’s true. I am unemployed, after a month on a new job. I want to tell the full story, but I am still trying to figure things out, and still deciding what is appropriate for me to write publicly. I suspect there will be more to come on this later. Or maybe not. We’ll see.
Those who know me know I am a ”tell all” kind of woman, so you also know it’s not easy for me to stay away from putting the good, the bad, and the ugly out there.
I did enjoy the actual work, and am proud of what I was able to accomplish during my time. I knew some of the potential pitfalls going in, but not all of them. It doesn’t matter. I learned from many different angles and it was fascinating.
People are interesting creatures and sometimes there is no accounting for why they do things the way they do. Sometimes the things they do have absolutely nothing to do with you, even when the impact is to you.
As an idealist, I am often reminded that life doesn’t work the way I believe it should. At least not for the short term.
Instead, in one of the more interesting aspects of life, I believe there are consequences to all of our actions. Sometimes it is best to sit back and watch the consequences take their toll as we all reap what we sow.
What’s more important is what’s coming next in my life. I have no clue. I am working to get ready to sell my house. That’s the number one thing I can do to cut expenses and responsibilities, and put me in a better position to pivot.
To what do I want to pivot? I have no earthly idea. For now I don’t believe I will be moving. I need to be around my family and have them around me. That’s not a sacrifice, but a privilege.
I would have thought I would feel very out of control with all of this. I don’t. I’m at peace. Oh, my mind is going a mile a minute sometimes as I consider different possibilities, but I want to invest my energy well.
Though the company was the wrong fit for me, I did enjoy the job. I started learning some valuable skills and will continue to work on those. They could be an asset in the future.
But do I want to work full time? I don’t know. Before that answer was a responding ”yes” – now I am re-evaluating. I do enjoy flexibility and freedom.
God is God and I have generally been pleased with where I have been led. I have no doubt the adventure ahead will be incredible.
In the meantime I am decluttering and paring down my possessions so I don’t have to move them all. You accumulate so much stuff after 14-years in a house. They won’t all fit in an apartment, so off they go.
Plus you get to the point where you say ”Why do I have all of this stuff?” There is no good reason, other than my ADHD mind really struggles with the focus needed to declutter. That mind is getting a work out and though I am on the slow and steady plan, sometimes it still overwhelms.
Next stage of life, coming up!
”Change your opinions, keep to your principles; change your leaves, keep intact your roots.” – Victor Hugo