Life Hits Like a Freight Train, Doesn’t It?

Life has not been especially easy lately. You know those times?

I don’t feel that I am doing anything particularly well and I’m aware of that kind of criticism that is unspoken verbally, but comes through loud and clear.

Or does it? I can look at others and see when they misjudge those around them. Am I fooling myself? Maybe. But it doesn’t matter, does it? We still feel it. The problem is us – why would we care what others think about us when we’re nowhere close to perfect? It means I need to put these opinions in proper perspective.

I’m angry with our health care system lately. Why are providers so slow to diagnose folks? Yes, I know the reason more than most. Our system is broken. Insurance doesn’t pay enough for certain procedures, provider organizations put profits above people and only give each patient minutes, and providers are exhausted so don’t go beyond the most simple diagnosis (which the patient can often rule out if they are asked the correct questions). Add to the time it takes an appointment for the simplest of things, and we have people dying as a result of the system. This just isn’t right.

Life is too short. Way too short for some.

It’s Mother’s Day tomorrow. So far I have only had two people wish me a happy mother’s day this year. Yeah, I don’t have children. It’s easier just to say “thank you“, but uncomfortable just the same. Every woman is not a mother, and get ones who are shouldn’t always be celebrated. I know many good ones, though, and they should be applauded every day.

I spent the day with one of my nieces today. She is always a breatte of fresh air. We didn’t do much – just had brunch and wandered, but ran into nice strangers and found some fun places. It was a good day.

I’m getting closer to getting my first tattoo. I have the idea, and have narrowed the artists down, but have to wait for them to open up their appointment books. I figure that’s a good sign. I want a very delicate hand, so had been looking for fine line specialists. I’m stalking a few great ones. Looks like I’ll be getting it done in Charlotte. I plan to pick the artist within the month.